The red envelope said:
"To my man"
I pulled out the archies card from inside.... It had a decorated heart on the outside with "our bond is beautiful" written in print above it. There were some more lines below the heart but i didn't read them, i had already read it many a times before. I opened the card, my heart pounding (every time i open the card, it reacts the same way.... bloody predictable (bloody & predictable)). On the top of left side was written in a beautiful hand:
"To the man who made my life seem so simple & beautiful!"
It means a lot that you are mine
"I will always love you
Miss you loads..."
On the right side was written:
"Yogi baby..."
and there were more printed lines below it but i skimmed to the end:
"Love
-XXXXXXXX"
The void, the great void in my heart seemed to expand more as i read what she had written... How much she loved me and how much i tried to make her understand that i can't. I mean she was and, in some sense, still is my best friend. And moreover, i was in love (or thought that i was though i most certainly want it to be true) with my master... how could i turn towards someone else when my heart had none else to cry for except my master?
She kept reminding me that my master is everywhere and in everyone... she said she's my master.. i thought her to be arrogant... my arrogant heart could not take all that she said....
Now that i reflect back, i see my faults.. Hey, i'm not regretting anything, whatever happens, happens for a purpose. And i see HIS purpose. Though i couldn't help noticing my own mistakes, so that i might not repeat them... It is never wrong to love anyone.. everyone is loveable and GOD is in everyone, so if you feel you love GOD, you should not turn your back on HIS beings.
And the great void yet expands more to see her falling for someone else, getting away from you and talking just twice a month when you used to talk for 8 hours a day...... And the great void expands, with my yearning, even for my master, failing me!!!!!
I wish i just could say, i'm sorry for everything.... Please forgive me!!!
May be this way, I could get close to my master once again!!!!
